14 Januari 2024, Ahad

12.09 tengah malam

It just happened 30 mins ago. Em. Dah 2 minggu join terpalinggggg support group Kami Okay V2 tu. Group yang kumpulkan psy patients dari merata tempat dan kononnya objektif untuk saling kita jaga kita.

Apa yang jadi tadi? For me, people always have millions of options to do good things. Someone in the group asked if is there anyone yang pernah overdose dan apa effect dia? She seems that she really needs help. And I did replied,

"Bergantung pada jenis ubat. Some med just buat you khayal and some memang buat you menggelupur dan azab like my experience before."

"Ubat apa?"

"Quetapine. I took 20 pills. 1 day unconscious, drip 3 bottles and tak tahu Dr drip ubat apa lagi tapi memang seriously azab.."

Out of blue, someone tag Admin and asked to delete my message. I was shocked. I was like kau kenapa cibai?!

I query why? I just replied to someone's question and I was also not encouraging her to do so. I even share tips to distract her recent emotion by doing something else. 

"Did I broke rules no. 6?" 

[Rules No. 6: No message of suicidal attempts, self harm. If anyone do so, please tag Admin]

"Entah la. I think I need to rewrite the rules. No one break anything." 

"I recommend this group to have at least 1 professional medical doctor etc. Instead of let all the psy patients sharing their experiences and asked for help, at least that guy can share some reliable tips to distract from you guys drowning into negative emotion..."

I also add, 

"Boleh je tegur secara personal kan. Instead of tag Admin untuk terus delete depan muka. Terpalinggggg admin. Thanks anyway."

Yeah, mestilah I marah. Benda adab menegur pun nak kena ajar. Also, bukan I galakkan, I just jawab soalan orang lain.

"It's okay. Saya mohon undur diri. Assalamualaikum." 

And I left. Tenang jiwa setenang-tenangnya.

It really makes me pissed off. Benda adab menegur pun failed. Bodoh! Grrrrr

By the way, diri sendiri pun bodoh. Dr pun dah pesan, nak cari support group, cari yang ada at least one or two professional dalam tu. Valid!

I was so dumb to stay in the group for 2 weeks walaupun Admin terang-terang gagal jawab my first question.

"Dalam ni memang semua psy patients yang dah pergi check & dapat medical diagnose atau campur?"

Dengan confident-nya, 1 of the admin answered, "Yes!"

Right after she answered it, someone replied, 

"Saya tak. Just masuk sebab nak kumpul kekuatan dan semangat untuk pergi check hospital..."

Support group FAILED. TOTALLY FAILED!

Bye!